Hudson Family: March 2010

It's taken me a while to post this one....for some reason I've had so many memories going through my head that have been buried for a while. I don't know what sparked them as her birthday came....maybe its just the fact my baby is growing up on me and I am so proud of who she's becoming.

This is an awful picture, but I thought it might help you understand my memories. There were times during her problems when I wondered if things would be all right. The first being when I found her the first time she had a siezure. I didn't know what happened all I knew is Jordan told me there was something wrong with her. I ran upstairs and found her on the bed. She was like a vegetable. No life except for her breathing. (is it stupid that I still can't think about it without tearing up!!) It took her about an hour of her lying lifeless before she started to come around. At that point she still couldn't talk, and she didn't recognize me. she looked at me with terror in her eyes and tried to push me away. I just remember thinking-don't you push me away I'm your MOM!! When the parimedics arrived I remember looking at one of them in the eye (he was in my ward) and asking him, "whats wrong with her, is she going to be ok?). He looked at me and couldn't say anything. At this point all I could do was plead in my head with Heavenly Father....Please don't take my baby!

She finaly came out of it fully after three hours, but that was the start of all her heart problems. I'm so thankful for how good she is doing now. For all the friends and family that prayed for her while she was going through it.....I don't know if I ever told everyone.... I remember the sunday before her surgery one of her friends coming to her (Anna Snow) and telling me Kaylee was going to be ok because everyone in the ward including her were having a special fast for her. Everyone was so good to her and helped her feel better.

I don't know why I decided to write about it I guess its because it made me appreciate my kids a little more and remember that even though they look perfect, things can change it the blink of an eye. Lately I've been wanting to hold on to my kids a little longer just so they know their mom loves them. The older ones find it kind of annoying! :-P'

Kaylee got contacts for her birthday!! She was so excited she has wanted them for a long time but we made her wait. I was so proud of her she learned how to put them in and get them out pretty fast!